This is a Mistake

Today, I realized that the biggest mistake I’ve been making in my life is being too afraid to make one. That explains why pressure has always been my best friend. Too often, I set limits so high for myself that I forget about being human. I forget about having feelings. I forget why I even try. My fear of making mistakes has reached a state so crucial that I punish myself whenever I commit a slight, unnoticable flaw. I always perspire my ass out over something while making sure everything’s perfect. One petty defect and boom! I feel like I failed everyone —- especially myself.

I feel like I can’t continue doing this but I’m too scared that stopping this might also be another mistake.

*sigh