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Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Letter to My Future Botfriend

Sunday, 17 April 2011
09:45 AM

"May the soul of Aj Perez rest in peace"

-- A text message I received from a friend

And I was like, WHAAAAAAT? So I got my phone, checked my Tumblr dashboard and voila! Aj Perez's death was trending. He died in some car accident at the age of 18. :( Even if I was never a fan of Aj, I was somehow disturbed by his death. I mean, he was so young to die. I continued to view posts about Aj and that's when I came across something that really caught my attention. It was a letter written by Aj Perez himself. No, it wasn't just an ordinary letter, it was a letter to his future girlfriend.

Here's the link if you want to read the letter. It's very sweet. :)

Anyway, after reading his letter, I felt very inspired to write to my future boyfriend! I mean, I don't know where on earth he is now, what he's been up to or how he looks like, if he's the Chuck-Bass-villain type or the typical-goody-goody-Enchong-Dee type but I just want to, you know, write to him! And someday, when I finally get to meet him, I'll have something to show him! ☺

So here it goes...

Dear Future Boyfriend,

First thing's first; CONGRATULATIONS! Finally, someone is able to digest my unpredictability and heartlessness! I mean, I've been told a million times that I'm very hard to impress! Well, you're amazing like that and congratulations to me too 'cause I've finally found you! :))


I have no idea if we've met already or you're miles away from me right now but one thing's for sure; I've been praying for you. :) Some say that I'm way too picky and that's why I never got the chance to meet you earlier. I never got the chance to be your high school sweetheart, summer love or prom date. I'm not picky. I just don't think I'm ready for you yet. It might be taking a long time for me to be ready but I think that that's just my way of thanking God for having someone as awesome as you are in store for me. I'll admit, I'm a sucker for handsome guys. Oh believe me, all girls are. But you know, you don't have to be as drop-dead gorgeous as Zac Efron to make me smile. As long as you look clean, I'm cool with it. Also, I'd like to tell you that unpredictability and spontaneity are the third and fourth names my parents forgot to give me. I can be really hard to handle sometimes and I do hope you'd understand me. One thing that really matters to me is your ability to listen to my pointless rants and since I've been praying, I bet you're all ears when I start with my ramblings. Another thing that's very important to me is honesty. To be perfectly honest, I've never been 100% truthful to anyone. Maybe I'm just a little too scared or I might just have reasons even I can't comprehend. No one knows my story yet. What everyone knows is just the gist of it. I'm really excited because I know that you will be first person I'd share my story with. From the beginning until the climax, I'll tell you detail by detail. I wouldn't have to worry about the ending because I know you'll be writing it with me. :) If you must also know, I value my family, friends, career and GOD very much and I do hope you will too 'cause for sure, I will absolutely value whatever you consider vital. Another thing you must know is that I love debates. May it be about politics or who made the 'Worst Dressed' list in the Grammy Awards, I'd like a hint of argument. It's not because I want a fight or something, it's simply because I want to see things at different angle. It's my way of humbling myself and getting a piece of your mind. After all, I can't have my boyfriend agreeing with whatever I say, right? If that happens, our relationship will be a bore! :) Finally, the most important thing you have to know is the key to make me really happy. What is it? It's YOU. Just be you. Don't try to be someone else just to make me happy. I appreciate the effort but you don't really have to try to impress me. It's weird but guys who don't try to impress me, well, impress me. Just be you and I'm happy! As I'm writing this, I can not imagine anyone I know to be reading this in the future. All I know is, again, I've been praying for you and I hope that right now, you are too! :)

Love Your Future Girlfriend,
Bea :)

Monday, April 4, 2011

Worth Every Risk

Typical story:

Boy meets girl in pre-school. Fate pushes them to be the best of friends. Time passes by and at the age of say, 16, both hearts are taken. Despite that reality, both still manages to catch up on each other's lives. When boy suffers a heartache, girl's there to be his "crying shoulder". When girl realizes her boyfriend's a jerk, boy attacks the bastard. And at one point, one realizes something..

Cliche, huh?

Yep, same cycle happens.

This might have happened to you already. For some, it is happening to them. But for me, it just might happen.

Let's look at the situation in two different angles.

Let's say I'm the boy and I fall for my best friend. I've seen her cry when she lost her doll in school. I've heard stories about her celebrity crushes and how she "mentally dates" them. I've seen her in her pajamas with no eyeliner and cheek tint. I've known her for as long as I remember and I don't think any boy has ever seen her, heard her and I guess, loved her the way I did and still do.

I hate to see her cry, though. It just gives the urge the give the bastard a headlock. I mean, those eyes! Tears don't deserve to stain those dainty eyes. They're perfect and the only thing I want to see with those tears is her smile when she's overjoyed. Plus, she doesn't deserve to cry. She doesn't deserve a heartache. She doesn't deserve to be mistreated. When I see her constantly checking her phone, waiting for that jerk's message, I just want to hug her tight and tell her that she deserves so much better --- someone better.

Someone like me.

This can happen to the girl too. I'm the girl now and I wake up to see a message from my best friend.

"Hey, can I see you today? I have a problem with *insert girlfriend's name here*"

Seeing the message, I cancel all my plans today, hit the showers, leave the house with barely no make-up on and rush to wherever my best friend is. I was with him when he scraped his knee, trying to teach me how to bike. I was with him when he had to put on a humongous shirt after being circumcised and boy was that hilarious! I was with him when he tried out for the soccer team. I didn't miss a game, not even once. I was with him for, well, ever and I know no girl will ever see him the way I do.

I can't stand the feeling of seeing him messed up over some bitch who doesn't even see his worth, though. He's awesome and I know he's got so much love in him. He's got so much to offer and I even consider the girls he's liked not just lucky, but blessed. I hate it when he turns into his girlfriend's driver who picks her up and drops her off anywhere, anytime. I hate it when he doesn't eat a decent meal just because he's saving for this branded bag his girlfriend demands from him. I hate it when he misses out on our movie nights just because he needs to what? Take his girlfriend's dog for a walk? He deserves so much better --- someone better.

Someone like me.

Falling in love with your best friend can be the most beautiful and most difficult thing that could ever happen to someone. Can you imagine being romantic with someone you used to wrestle before? Can you imagine going on a date with someone who used to listen to all your yaps about your new crush? Can you imagine walking down the aisle with someone who used to plan his dream wedding with you but his mind is locked on to some other bride or groom?

That's right, imagine it.

Falling in love with your best friend: It's worth every risk. Take it. :)

B :)

The Hunger Games ♥

Katniss: So, since we were five, you never even noticed any other girl?
Peeta: No, I noticed just about every girl but none of them made a lasting impression but you.

I died.

One of my summer must-do's is to make up for my reading. The last ten months of college consumed me --- and I mean all of me. My time, my energy, my brain cells, my social life, and yes, my constant need to read. So I made a list of the things I must do this summer and yes, TO READ topped the list! :)

Since I'm a sucker for Nicholas Sparks' books, I was rather expecting one of his creations to be the first book I'll read this summer. Probably The Lucky One or Message in the Bottle.

But to my surprise, I found myself reading a completely different book. It's The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins.

It's not like the ones I usually read because adventure books don't seem to thrill me. (You can call me boring now, whatever. >:P) Maybe it's because I always seem to find myself lovestruck at books with a romantic plot in a boy's point of view. So, I must say, that reading The Hunger Games is a first and whoa, did I looooove the book!

Okay, I'm not going to blabber about the whole story or how it ended because I want to thrill you. Yes, thrill you. But still, allow me to let you see a glimpse of how the story goes.

It's not your typical story. Everything's very unpredictable. Soon enough, I'm sure you will have a hard time putting the book down. (I even resorted to bringing the book to the mall! It's that addictive. ) It's a story about a reality show in Panem in the year 2720. (Correct me if I'm wrong) The whole show focuses on one rule; kill or be killed. All the "players" are sent on an arena, depending on the producers of the show. It may be in a desert, forest, island, you'll never know. Each district in the country is to send one boy and one girl tribute to represent them in the reality show. Katniss Everdeen and Peeta Mellark represented District 12. To survive the "Hunger Games", you must be likable enough to attract sponsors. They will be the ones to supply your basic needs in the arena. The Star-crossed Lovers from District 12: This was Katniss and Peeta's strategy to attract sponsors. They had to pretend that they were madly in love with each other. So the games started and guess what? Their strategy worked! Not just for the sponsors but to them. Yes, they fell in love. And what happened? Only the two of them were left in the games. KILL OR BE KILLED. Again, that's the theme.

Oooh, I bet you're wondering how the story ended! Read the book! It's to die for!♥

And oh, PEETA MELLARK'S JUST TOO DREAMY. He's not your cliche fantasy character like Edward Cullen or something. Peeta Mellark is real. He doesn't sparkle, he doesn't suck blood and he's 100% human. (I have nothing against Edward Cullen, by the way. I just can't help but compare them :D Forgive me, Edward Cullen fans :D ) Peeta Mellark's one of the reasons why The Hunger Games is definitely a must-read!

And oh, another oh! In March 2012, The Hunger Games Movie will be appearing on the big screen! I can't wait! I swear I'll watch it on its premiere date! I can't let the world end without me watching it! I do hope they get the right characters for the film! Fingers crossed! But I have a bet, though! Kaya Scodelario as Katniss and Alex Pettyfer as Peeta! PERFECT! See?

Read the book! You'll love it, I swear! ;)

Bea :*